TIME!!
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Never take time for granted. We all do it no matter what. I took advantage of my time and honestly i really regret it. The saying is…that time is money!!! Well what happens when money doesnt have that much of a value in this world anymore…you’d regret working so hard…that you really lost track of what was really important!! To me money is important..but not as important as family! You could have all the money in the world…but you could never be comforted by it! Family is your money. Im really only saying this because im home….all day…alone with a three year old that doesnt know the difference…between…right from sinfully wrong! My only friend…my imagination!! My mom shes a workoholic…my dad…when hes home….is addicted to the computer or ESPN news! My youngest sister..is in school and hangs out with her friends all day!! My oldest sister is a sleep o holic…and addicted to video games!! Me…im alone! I used to complain about how terrible my life was because i was being teased in school…or how my friends just pissed me off!! Well honestly i miss all that drama…to me…that WAS my high life..i would be out hanging with friends all day…i was barely home!! Now im home everyday never leave the house!!! People get mad at me if i say i want to go out and hang with my family!! Would i trade this life for my old one?? Maybe…depends on the consequences!! So people dont take your time for granted because, you dont know how quick life can change with a “snap”!! Time is valuable!!
MMMMMEEEEERRRRYYYYY!!! CHRISTMAS…or in other cases happy hanukkah!! haha!!
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well its like 2 days from christmas and i cant help but think…why do you give presents on christmas?? well my friend here is your answer!!! its so that kids can be happy instead of goin to church and falling asleep and to give kids cheer!!! We actually lose sight of what christmas is really about…which is the birth of Jesus Christ!! he put us on this earth to live and be happy!! all i want for christmas is time with my family and as much as i dont express it i want to give to the less fortunate!! like children with cancer or people in general with cancer or help out at a soup kitchen or help out at a homeless shelter or just go around spreading cheer to all around me!! it makes me feel warm inside…(that was cheezzy) lol!!!…or another perfect christmas present…THE NEW NOOK COLOR!!! (WINK WINK MOM) HAHA!! Last year my parents were soooo far in debt that we couldnt afford presents…and it made my mom feel really bad!!! so what i did was went and gave things to my family of mine that i new they wanted!! i gave my older sister my favorite pair of black leather boots!!! my youngest sister i gave her my birthday money…which is 2 weeks before christmas haha!! my dad coupons for anything he wanted me to do and i gave my mom my favorite rhinestone necklace!! and my mom felt so bad so i even cooked christmas dinner…then she was happy haha!! but it made me feel better about myself for doing it and i never regreted it!! for me i always think about others before i put myself first!! that is my challenge for you for christmas!!! CAN YOU DO IT???
CMP and tell me what you did to put others before yourself!!! i would sure love to hear the storys!!! <3
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED!!!
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Hey, i know, i know…its been a while!! i have a lot to say!!! Most of you probably dont know this…im bi-sexual!! The family i live with know that i am…but only hope its just a phase!!! Ive known ever since i was young and i didnt come out til i was about 14 or 15!!! I was sorta hinting and my younger sister finally caught on and sorta forced me to say something! My mom was always so accepting of the gay community and she is very open minded…but i dont think she ever thought her daughter would be gay! she asked me how far do i lean toward females and i told he more than i do men… she doesnt know that i know that she is disappointed in a way!! with my mom its just really very complicated!!! in a way i think she thinks that i chose to be this way but honestly i cant help it!!! i first knew when i was about 7!! my kiss first kiss was with a female! i didnt tell anyone at first because i thought i was confused and didnt want people to think badly about me…espeacially my friends…whom are mostly females…and i didnt want them to feel uncomfortable…all my friends do know!!im now 17 and ive really only dated men because in ways im still in denial about my sexuality..which quite frankly i dont really understand because i am so open about it!! my family outside of my house do not know because my grandparents all think that being gay is wrong and that it says in the bible that god created men and women to be together and not same sex!! ive always said well if its so why did god make me like this?? i just want to be able to be accepted by my family and friends and i wish they really understood!! one of my ex friends really used to explore sexuality and would always say if your bi you should eat me out so i can really tell if your bi!! i always told her no because it would make things weird for me and i never looked at her in that way!! instead of me making her feel uncomfortable she made me feel uncomfortable because she would always use that against me!! which is why i just stopped hanging out with her! i just really want to come out completly!! which is why im on the market for women only! which one day i hope to find that girl who understands where im coming from!!
Lighter Than Air!!!
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OK!! So Remmber my friend i talked about in a previous blog!!! Well shes been trying to get in touch with me!!! I havent really felt the need to talk to her!!! I really havent had anything to say to her…that is…until today!!! she messages me yesterday and felt te need to say!!! wow shows how much of a real friend you were you ignore me thats really stupid!! and i just sent her a long ass message telling her how i felt…litterally sat at the computer for about an hour and a half writing that message!! and at the end of the message..i told her that i did care and i do want her opinion!!! when i told her all my feelings through that message i felt free!!! like 1000000000000000 how evr much that is lighter!!! some of the things hurt to say coming from me…but they needed to b said becuz i just cant keep running circles around her world anymore!!! i caitered to her evry need and when i told her that i explained i just wasnt gunna do it anymore!!!the truth really does hurt but it also frees the feelings!!! right now im lighter than air on edge!!!BUT!!! for some reason i have a feeling that wont last much longer!!!
BREAST CANCER AWARNESS!!
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Ok so I dont know much about breast cancer but its always fun to help raise awarness!! I just got done participating in a breat cncer awarness thing for facebook!!! It was kinda weird to do it but i did!! If you have a facebook i would totally recommend this!! LOOK UP THE EVENT LADIES ONLY!!…CANT FIND IT??? HERE IT IS!!!
Febuary-2weeks
March-3weeks
April-4weeks
May-6weeks
June-8weeks
July-10weeks
August-12weeks
September-13weeks
October-14weeks
November-16weeks
December-18weeks
Days of the month:
1- Skittles
2- Starburst
3- Kit-Kat
4- M&M’s
5- Tomatoes
6- Ice Cream
7- Dairy Milk
8- Lollipop
9- Peanut Butter Cups
10- Meat Balls
11- Twizzlers
12- Bubble Gum
13- Hershey’s Kisses
14- Chocolate Mints
15- Twix
16- Cheese
17- Fudge
18- Cherry Jello
19- Banana’s
20- Pickels
21- Chicken Wings
22- Skittles
23- Gummy Bears
24- Gummy Worms
25- Strawberry Pop Tarts
26- Starburst
27- Mini Eggs
28- Kit-Kat Chunkie
29- Double Chocolate Chip Chrunchy Cookies
30- Smarties
31- Chocolate Cake
if you dont understand this heres what mine is!!
MY EX: IM 18 WEEKS AND CRAVING HERSHEYS KISSES!!
by doing this i just saved someones life!! If you dont want to do the whole status thing its ok…its not like im holding a knife to your throat! BUT YOU WILL SAVE A LIFE!!!
JUST GO TO FACEBOOK NOW AND SAVE A LIFE!!
BEST FRIENDS!!
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What is it bout best friends that piss you off!!! For me its when they act stupid and get jealous and say stupid shit that they probably dont mean!! I do have a friend like that!! excep me and her used to be enemies!! We actually fought in the girls bathroom in school!! THANK GOD we didnt get caught!!! After that she came up to me and apologized and so did i!! We went on to be friends for 2 years, and I stuck with her through freakin thick and thin!! Litterally!! When she ran away from home she would come running to me!!! When her and her ex would get into it! She ran to me!! Then, there came the time where we were spendig every freakin waking minute together!! And we ended up fighting and breaking up and making up!! ALL THE TIME!! We would litterally spent so much time together it got to the point where our breakups went for weeks!! She would get jealous that I made other friends and claim that i was always spending time with my other friends and never her!! What she didnt understand was that we were spending so much time together that I just got tired of bein with her all the time!! So one time i actually made up an excuse to have a break from her for a day and she found out that I lied to her!! Now your probably thinking well how come you werent straight forward with her…well its cuz she not quite so understanding! either way she would have gotten mad at me cuz i didnt wanna hang out! She was mad at me for like 3 days!!! Then a long while after that my mom dropped a bomb shell on me that we were moving to a different state!!! AND THAT JUST SET HER OFF!! she wanted to be around me so much that i couldnt see my other friends to say goodbye!! and when i moved I tried to talk to some friends that were her exes and she never had a problem with me ever talkin to them becuz they were pretty much my friends before they started dating!! and she txted me pissed off saying that i promised i never talk to them ever again…which i didnt…and basically we have just had a big falling out and we “broke up” and havent spoken since!!! today she sends me a video about best friends and it was some chick apologising to her best friend!! guess what…im unimpressed…i would be impressed if se made a video fo us…and maybe i could forgive her!!! But to be truthfully honest…My life has been so much better since shes been outta it…we were complete opposites!!! she was the hardcore party girl and i was he”innocent” girl compared to her!! I LOVE HER to death but before we can be friends she needs to change her childish ways and learn to grow up!! in times its ok to be playful and childish but she was always bein childish at the wrong moments!! and basically…ALL THE TIME!! Just know chick…I DO MISS YOU!!! and there will always be a place for you in my heart but…change a little…then we can talk!!!
Beyond the Shadow of a Doubt!!
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Simply put it this way. I love you forever, I miss you always, and without you im lost!! I dont know why you give me a reason to breathe. but you do. its uncontrollable. You are my kryptonite! why?! You’ve done so much shit to me that i wish i just can forget you and move on!! but it doesnt work like that! Does it? I feel llike im trapped in a really bad Justin Bieber love song! But iknow Beyond the Shadow of a Doubt your the one i want to spend the rest of my life with! but I hate your manipulative ways! Why keep me when i left! the more you hold on the more i cant move on! you dont want a relationship with me…and unfortunatly i know why! YOUR A GUY! I know the way you think! You Dont know me! you might think you do, but ive changed since we last dated! im not the inoccent girl i once was!…Unfortunatly! TIME TO MOVE ON!
Bout Me!!
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So your probably wondering WTF is this shiz!! Well no need to fear, its just me a girl dieing inside of herself in te path of re-discovery.
i just tak about simple things in my life tht i cant really talk to anyone about! So therefor you are helping me get all the bad shiz in ma
life out!! GET OVER IT!!
